A Poem

I am so sick of lies,

sick of all those times that I lost meaning and fell for all your lies.

Sick of feeling worthless letting you defeat my heart,

sick of hurting, sick of needing a fresh, new start.

Sick of waiting and watching for a point that just won’t come,

after college, after uni, then I’ll get things done.

When I’m old, I’ll be bold and give my life to God,

when I’ve had my fun, when my life is done, then I’ll step out for my God.

But what about now, what about today,

what am I living for, how good is my way?

Because if God is really God and sovereign in all things,

if He knows the future, the past and is King of all Kings.

Do I really have a choice, is it not very clear,

because if God is all knowing and holds me dear.

Then why shouldn’t I trust Him that He knows best,

that my way is wrong way and that leads to death.

Because who am I to say that God is wrong,

wouldn’t that be exalting myself to His throne?

And I’d never say that I’m perfectly good,

or awesome and righteous and do everything I should.

I’d never say I’m holy or creator of all,

all-knowing and sovereign and ruling over all.

Because I am sick of those lies that will lead me astray,

I am sick of those times when you’ve had your way.

Because I thought it was me, my life, my rules,

but I was just blind and now I feel like a fool.

You were controlling my actions, my thoughts,

and I let you in and now it all comes to naught.

Well I thought I was free, free to live, free to choose,

but you had me shackled, didn’t realise I’d lose,

everything that I had ever held dear,

because this life is full of hatred and fear.

But I know that my home belongs in heaven,

and if I’ll only believe it and take what I’ve been given,

then this world could be changed by my God through his daughter,

He could use me to flood the world with living water.

Through me, lives could change, blind could see, deaf could hear,

and he could wipe away everyone’s tears.

If I’ll only let him use me, the girl that by His grace He formed,

what amazing things could happen, how this world could be transformed!

Because that’s really all He asks for, our lives in exchange for His,

so now when I say I live, I mean that Jesus lives in this.

Because I’ll admit deep down I know this world could change,

but not by my power so I’ll have to exchange,

because when we accept Jesus right into our lives,

the power that rose Jesus is sure to arrive.

Jesus promised in those glorious days;

that if we ask him and if we pray,

He will send us a helper like nothing we’ve seen,

to show the world that they are dirty and mean.

To help us change lives through the power of God,

to herd up the sheep with God’s powerful rod.

Of righteousness!

Yes righteousness I said,

because Jesus has saved us, poured oil on our heads!

So we’re clean, we’re forgiven, we’re righteous in His sight,

and we have been chosen to shine, and shine bright!

To show the world how this righteousness cleanses,

that only through Him can their hearts be mended.

That no money, no honour, no glory or power,

no fame, no food, not even all they could devour.

Will ever satisfy that void that they feel,

where they know something’s missing, something very real.

Something they were born without,

something they’ve always felt,

and yet rejected the very thing that truly could have dealt, with every fear and longing, every insecurity, but maybe they didn’t understand, maybe it’s our fault they can’t see.

Because we are so quick to be defensive to hide in our protective shells,

thinking we’ll be safe there, but I can hear alarm bells.

Because Jesus is a just God and he most rightfully said,

that if we truly love him, we’ll obey everything he’s said.

Because is it not true that God asked us to take

his words to every street and disciples make.

And isn’t it true that faith without works is dead?

So what works do you do?

Which sheep have you fed?

Because that’s what Jesus told us, to tend to His sheep,

to bring back the lost ones and ‘what you sow you reap’.

So if judgment is a consequence of not shining his light,

if sins of omission are equal to those we try to fight,

then surely we should buck up and have a little faith,

that God the Father does not really want our lives to take,

a route that leads to destruction and punishment and pain,

and He doesn’t, so He’s given us a link up to the mains.

He told us He would give us power to do good works and deeds,

to heal the sick, the blind and lame, and the poor and hurt to feed.

And He did, He did, He gave us power, far beyond our needs, and what did we do - us children of light?

Why we let the devil succeed, in convincing us that God was wrong?

That we can’t do those things,

that we’re not good enough to do those things the Spirit brings.

Like ‘I can’t pray for that dude there, He’s far too ill to heal’

or maybe ‘someone else will feed them, it’s really no big deal’.

But it is a big deal!

Can we truly not see?

How important this task is, the task for us to be, not only salt and light on earth, example to the nations, but flag bearers and people calling giant exclamations,

of Jesus and the gospel and how by Him we’re all saved,

of sin and condemnation and the righteousness He gave.

So won’t you join me in this fight, because though I’m really not perfect, I know my saviour Jesus IS and though He has not come yet, the time is near and He’s coming soon but guys this world’s not ready!

How many times has Jesus asked us to hold the banner steady?

Because this world needs a saviour and it needs a saviour soon,

because destruction, pain and violence are leading them to doom.

How many of our friends and family are going to go to hell,

how many of them are heading for a place of tears and yells?

Because I’m not going to make this message fluffy and appealing,

it’s controversial, painful but a message that speaks healing.

Friends we need to step out and speak and tell the world his love,

and if we don’t then surely we know that tears will fall from above.

Because Jesus really loves them, more than any of us ever could,

he died and shed His blood for them and that is why we should,

be not afraid of worldly punishment, worldly ways or approval,

since Jesus spoke of revolution, rebellion and upheaval.

He’s the one who really counts, the only thing that matters,

so I refuse to stand by the side and watch as the world is battered.

So will you join me in rebellion against the Evil One?

The one who schemes and lies and tempts and even tried the Son,

so let us not be so afraid to stand up and be counted,

in the army of God as soldiers when the battle cry is sounded.

Because I am sick of lies,

sick of all those times that I lost purpose and fell for all his lies,

and I’m sick of letting him rule every bit,

so I’m telling you now, I’m done with it.